Given what you lost, are you better off?
Given what you had, has it made you mad?
Celebrate the few, celebrate the new
It can only start with you
I read these lyrics and it pushes me to think about my life. I wonder if I truly celebrate the things that are few and good and new. I feel like I spend a lot of time wasting around, waiting for something or another to happen. I am in the midst of a process through faithfulness, and I wonder if this is just a step ahead of me. Given everything I've faced, have I been faithful? No matter what I've lost or gained, no matter how people act towards me or any circumstance, have I been faithful. It's just such a great composition of words. It only starts with me, am I willing to be faithful? I have such a draw to sit around and let myself essentially sin. I seem unwilling to commit to things and I wonder why. Can't I just be a motivated individual who is willing to sacrifice everything for others. I mean Schindler went through hell trying to save people, I mean he gave all he had. Where is my zeal? Where is the life that comes out of giving? Why am I so deceived by thoughts of grandeur? Where is my head? Where is my trust? My faith? Why am I so stuck in easy life, and unwillingness to suffer through most things. I don't understand me. I wish I could just make myself read, work, and be productive all the time. I feel like I just waste time all the time. God what needs to change in my life? What do I need to truly surrender? How do I do that? Why do I struggle with this?
